Mom's audience

If you showed up to my home unannounced right now, you will get to see our pile of shoes (two pairs of boy sneakers and two pairs of boy crocs and a pair of women's Old Navy flip flops) in one corner and my PTA box in another, a pile of folded laundry in one of the living room chairs and a basket of unfolded laundry by my fireplace. Let me not forget tumble weeds of dog hair in every corner of the house. Ah the life of a working mom.

Some days, I will go insane and start furiously clean and heaven help the individual who decides to leave his empty glass on the dining room table. Other days, I inhale and say it's ok, because I need to play a board game with the boys or sit next to hubby and watch TV with him. For some reason, during the day, where I decide to let it be is usually the day someone decides to visit. I have to apologie and ask the said guest to excuse the mess and later, when that person leaves, I beat myself up for "letting my house go."

It made me wonder, where do we draw the line? When do we say, yes, we need to put the needs of our families first, but we can't live in a pig sty either? I struggle with this a lot and I wish I have the answer. (WHEN WILL  EVER HAVE THE ANSWER TO THESE QUESTIONS THAT BOMBARD MY THOUGHTS?!)

As with many things in my life, I run to my GPS- aka the Bible. Proverbs 31:10-31 is contains the famous characters of a noble wife. In these verses, we see that this wife of noble character has her husband's full confidence. She brings her husband good and not harm. She's wise, honest and kind in her business and personal dealings. She even extends kindness to the poor. I strive to be this woman but in all honesty, when I read this and I compare myself to her, I feel like a total failure. That is until I read the verse 30, "Charm is deceptive and beauty is fleeting but a woman who fears the Lord is to be praised."

God looks at our hearts. For me the bottom line is remembering that I have an audience of One.  

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